Three Times

As the deadline drew near, three times, by three different people: Are you sure you do not want to apply for this job?

Much of me did want to reapply: so much of my identity entwined in what I have been doing. Have I done the right thing for the right reasons? I believe so.

I know that the Spirit guided the facilitator when she selected the opening prayer for the first discernment meeting.

"God, my Source of Strength:
A season is turning in my life
Calling me to make ready:
Walk with me, I pray.

This unmapped course lies divided ahead
Urging careful determination:
Walk with me, I pray.

The gate has swung open and everything's loose
Bidding that something be left behind:
Walk with me, I pray.

Until the turbulent waters clear
I reach for your mercy
and pray for wisdom:
Walk with me, I pray.

Amen"*

The gate has, indeed swung open. I know what I think I am leaving behind. We shall see.


*This prayer comes from Keri K. Wehlanders's wonderful book Circles of Grace: Worship and Prayer in the Everyday, The United Church Publishing House ISBN 1-55134-080-1